The Aftermath

There are questions you left me with

Questions that question my reasons to exist

Never looking back, a silence that was the loudest I ever heard you speak

Did I survive..Yes I did

Promises turned to premonitions

Of the future that was never to be

I existed not in now, never here

Waiting for a time in future

Finally the wait was over, and so was the future

Did I survive..Yes I did

You the mirror on my wall

My reflection forlorn and distorted

Losing the sight of how I looked,

The mirror broken in a thousand pieces and I was free

Hazy, unsure and cynical, the footsteps ever so tentative

I tread the path with myself

I know not if the trail blazer I would be

Stubborn as ever, I walk in the night

Hearing the twilight very close

I would survive..yes I would

Ode to Them

Bought into the world at some one else's behest
welcomed at times at times not..
I am a clean slate, an untainted mirror depended on you to show me the way..
I am a miracle, yet to unfold
I am a story, yet to be told
I am the seed, before the tree
I am the caged bird, still to be set free.....
What a great responsibility your shoulders need to lift
To feed, to care, to love, to give
You are my lighthouse in the stormy see,
A warm coccon to shelter me...
There are thoughts inside which I would want to share,
But for the fear of rejection, I would not dare
There is a part of myself which you have yet to see....
Have you ever wondered that could be the real ME!!

Nudge me, but not too hard..
Refrain from using words that sound to harsh
My ears are gentle, every word amplified
I become what ever you say as the years slide....
Instill in me the courage thats never broken
Fill me with hopes of the road not taken....

Then see me blossom into the ONE!!
Guiding you, when your eyes can't see none
I will be the strong wall against whose support you will stand
After all every Child is the Father of Man...

I am done with

I am done with all of this for why do I carry on??

Suspended to one end of a rope..

The other end is held by my dumb ego..

Which says Its your mess..So better hold on..

The days and nights follow the same pattern,

With nothing changing except the dates on the calendar

With nothing much left to discover nothing much to say

An all encompassing silence which is holding all of it together

I am not wanting any more, nor expecting

For you can’t give and what you can I have no need left..

This basic prognosis out of our way

We fill each other’s needs…not lives anymore..

ME to YOU and YOU to US, was a journey done sometimes ago

I need to be on a lonesome journey again..

For the questions I have...Looking for answers…

To all my humble beginnings..I need conclusions..

I need to know if my expectations were a far cry

If my wants were one too many

If I asked for the moon and the stars

Or was it just the wrong juxtaposition.

One day the rope would slip off my hands

I would fall into an abyss of nothingness..

Would my fall be noticed?? my absence remotely felt..

Or would it just be an unknown obituary..and some unfinished tasks….

Why in His Name

I was born free to rule and reign,
His creation, exemplary and Flawless
Trying to rebuild the Eden again
I had all tools to make the Universe marvellous

I had a body but no boundaries
I had a mind but no prejudices
I had the intellect, but no manipulations
I was the BEST in all gradations

Then came the god the one created by Man
A tool to vandalise, in whose awe the weak would stand..
The gods multiplied, and so did the wars
Centuries went by, but these religious armies won't disband.

Some call it a foundation, but its used as a crutch.
To support the rotting flesh, which can't do much
For terror and destruction that you do in HIS name
Looking from above HIS head would be hung in shame..

Take back the god and set the world free...
Put an end to this frenzy and the killing spree
Don't tell me my place, my religion, my creed..
I want to be sea, where all rivers meet..

You and Me

Like a ripple in the water you entered my being
A gentle splash, little noise and then the calm and serenity resumed.

I look at my damaged shores which have borne the wrath of your spell
The spell you cast on me, which lasted for days and will live till eternity

It will last in my dreams, my hopes, my faith, my gut
Like a neon signboard. Bright and inescapable.

I live my life as I relive those moments of truth
I am still confused feeling so surreal.
You came and left to some distant land
I am here repairing the damaged shores

Definitions, Principles and directions I believe in none today.
Why should I they hold no good
Some forces too great work above me
Subservient I am to the ONE above.

Let me try again

Let me try again

Let me try again since all is not lost
Lets me try again since life has not stopped
Lets me try again from the start, to build, create and manifest
Lets me try again…

The trust like broken mirrors strewn on the floor
I see the reflection, distorted and forlorn
I will put it together again, piece by piece
My soul will bleed still let me try again..

Looking for answers all life long
Finding the purpose as the journey prolongs
In the process of healing inch by inch
I will find us..let me try again..

Words fail me to tell what you mean to me
My love, my desire, my GOD, my dream..
You are long gone your shadow remains
I will meet you for sure..let me try again.

Outburst

I was born to rule, blessed with intelligence and strength to conquer
That how I became the highest form of life
Pity my existence today!
My presence is robbing away all beauty, which I never created, yet I eat into it like a virus unrelenting

HE blessed me with all that was powerful, yet did not stop me from making choices
I made choices, out of fear, greed, jealousy and hatred
All this and more because I was the ONE!
The creator, the Nurturer, and the destroyer all rolled in to one
I chose to DESTROY.

I destroyed everything beautiful, fragile and feeble.
The ones that could not speak were easy
The ones that could speak, I silenced with my resolve.
My chariot is in motion as centuries go by..

I don’t stop to count my blessings not to hear the cries of those I crushed
I move on at break neck speed towards my destruction..
HE did not stop me when I started, he would not stop me now.
I am the Creator the Nurturer and the Destroyer all rolled into one